Friends Again

I'm feeling better today. Thinking about him a little less. Excited to do this Vuelta a Cotopaxi. It should be fun. I need it. I need an aggressive goal. Something else to think about, focus on. And then maybe TransEcuador that keeps showing up on my mind. A true send off. We will see. I talked to Fer yesterday, it was nice. She was open about how she felt she didn't want to keep judging me about George. And I wasn't responding. I remember that. I didn't respond because I was with him. I distanced myself too. We are good now, though. We talked it out. And that makes me feel better. We are friends again. I need friends right now. 

I am gaining weight, went up fast but that's ok. I need to eat. I need my period back. I just need to keep exercising. It's weird though because I was so skinny for so long and I liked it, but I was dizzy and I wasn't eating much at all with George. I wonder what that was. We were both doing it. I do want to eat less at night though. I liked doing that. It was healthier. I slept with a full stomach yesterday. Maybe I will focus more on protein at lunch and eat less at night more often. Tomorrow. 

I'm grateful for...

- Fer and making up with her

- Ari and Patty 

- My health. physically, mentally, and emotionally 

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